i swear i hate exams.
its not because of stress or what.
its because everytime before my paper starts there will be super shitty things that would happen and shit my life.

it would be hard if i can pass my exams.

thanks for the lies you told me.

i had a dream before waking up in the cool weather today.
again i couldn't recall the details as soon as my eyes opened.

i looked at my right arm..

i thought its getting completely fine.
not until i put both my arms together.
i realised the scar is still so vivid.

you thought you don't love the same person you are with that much.
not until you put the person together with whom he/she was when you first met.
you will realise how much you've been through.

11.20.09

i wanna watch it!

went to timbre on friday night. listen to goody good music from the band there.
went over to lao pa sat for supper.
wanted wings but arent any.
had satays, stingrays, and a chee chong fun.
walked back and on the way passed by this nice place.
gotta check it out someday.
the time i got home, i missed you by just a bit.



went to watch spread earlier on, a movie by ashton kutcher.
ate the fried chicken rice again. yummy.
ok, you've got me thinking.
so now, can you please say something?
15mins.. and is like 12 hours? and it sucks doesnt it?

so.. i m back in school for my revision!
its been a productive day.
oh i dint know i missed so many quizes by thinkerman cmy.
hahaha..

a million things happen today.
its like a week packed in a day.
and now its over.

time: 11.15

should i be happy or sad?

i m confused!

i.... i.... like..
oh god i don't even dare to say.
i am so not myself.

my wound is healing! cause i feel the itch! =)

no its not pain.
but when i see it, my heart feels that it is.
its been dripping, the bubbles can grow huge.
i couldn't stay out of house for too long or too far, didn't want anyone to see it.
i m scared at looking at it myself, what might others?
its making my hand tired fast probably.
i felt like an old man with some strange medicine smell on me.

i wish it could be over soon.

oh, i ggled about you.
thou you sounded realistic, you are fictional.
that makes realistically fictional.
to secrets i m not solving.
to listen i could have more than a ear.

youareprobablygonnabeoutofsight.

andishouldjustenjoymyballoonparty.

=)

its good to hear that rainy is not changing her name anymore.

i see that photo.
i see your msn nick.
i msn you no reply.
i sms or call you didn't pick.

why are you doing this all the time.
when you needed someone who was the first to lend a hand.
why you turn things around so quickly.

i shut off my com at 1.
phoned you.

my mind's like a hall full of people.
i couldn't put myself to sleep.

my phone recieved a msg. it was some msg that supposed to come in at 8.
i looked at the time, it was 3.

my phone's not functioning anymore. probably it wants me to be alone for awhile.
some sms it didn't want me to see. some calls it didn't want me to pick.
i guess.

you've always wanted guys to chase you. you'd never see of who really cares for you.
probably you don't need it. what you need is some fresh kind of feeling, some people that hadn't showed care and love to you before to make you feel loved and treasured.

it’s no surprise i won’t be here tomorrow
i can’t believe that i stayed till today.

i went off to meet my poly year one classmates.
it was nice seeing them, thou not all of them was there.
we played texas, it was crazy.
laughed till my last breath.
it was fun when its with them.
we knew what was friendship.
chunda came at 1am driving his gf's car, but still he made it there just for us.
he didn't know we were playing texas, till he saw us playing texas.
and the next day he quickly went off to fetch her gf to work at 5 in the morning.
the rest of us, we went over to upper thomson for some food.
my frens have something in common.
they each drove a car. i could sit in any car i wished.
all of them have gf and their gf just don seem to sleep. they still call/sms.
oh ya, i saw qing yi and her fren there. they alighted from a bus and they looked a little drunk.
yelled at her.
chatted a little while. most or rather all, especially waimun, seemed interested.
we had supper tgr.
anyway waimun paid for our fooddd. he was the big winner of the games.
then we decided to let darwin go home as he was going off to bintan with his gf at 7am ferry.

friends don't ask a reason to meet. they don't need a special purpose to meet. they don't question how much it costs to meet. or how tired it may be.
otherwise might as well be strangers.

don't let it end like a meteor shower.

this song goes out to all the special people in my heart,
for that one person that gives the most matters, you know who you are.
gives us matter for now, gives us matter later.
all i got to do is make that call, turn around, where the fuck are you?
and so to you from the bottom of my heart, i wanna say one thing..
fuck you